So in addition to figuring out what grad school option makes the most sense for me, another major battle going on in my head is whether or not I should go on medication. Before I went into residential treatment I was extremely against the idea of any sort of psychiatric treatment, and thought that if I had a problem I needed to solve it on my own. When I entered the inpatient program it seemed that everyone was on some sort of drug therapy. I was given a prescription for a drug I could take to stop my anxiety right before meals, but since my anxiety did not particularly spike then I hardly ever took it because it made me feel so lethargic. Now my current therapist is really pushing me to go on medication for anxiety/depression and I am unsure of what to do. I don’t know why I am so scared of being on meds. Maybe its giving up control that I am afraid of. Every time my therapist brings up medication it is less of a discussion and more of you really need to do xyz. I wish I could talk to my mom about all of this, but she tends to have very strong reactions to things and I am afraid that if I mention medication to her she’ll assume things are really, really bad right now with me, which there not, and go into high alert mode. One thing I am sure of is that if I do on medication it will be while I am back at school so that I could see my therapist consistently and not bounce around from dr to dr as I switch from home to school.
Have you ever considered medication? If you’re on it have you found it helpful?